Chief Joseph of Nez Perce

I am tired of fighting.

Our chiefs are killed.
Looking Glass is dead.
Toohulhulsote is dead.
The old men are all dead.
It is the young men who say no and yes.
He who led the young men is dead.

It is cold and we have no blankets.
The little children are freezing to death.
My people, some of them,
Have run away to the hills
And have no blankets, no food.
No one knows where they are-
Perhaps they are freezing to death.
I want to have time to look for my children
And see how many of them I can find.
Maybe I shall find them among the dead.

Hear me, my chiefs, I am tired.
My heart is sad and sick.
From where the sun now stands
I will fight no more forever...

-Chief Joseph of Nez Perce

It's IMPLIED.

Somedays, I get stressed out. It's true. No surprise, right? People will be able to tell when I'm stressed. I will be either a prickly lion or a person dying from an attack of the giggles. Or, a sarcastic bastard. Who knows. Maybe you don't see it.

Today, I felt like I had two separate minds. One felt stressed out and the other was incredulous at people's audacities (does that even make sense?). Sure.

Regardless of that fact, I feel like this week is better than last weeks. Simply because I still have a little bit more energy left from the weekend of sleep I had. I am still sick, and my mom has decided that the reason my cough/cold is taking so long to go away is because of the lung contusion from my accident. Possible? Who knows. Oh, that's right - a doctor. Eh. Even then... Anyways, I sound like a boy going through puberty - my voice is just all over. At the same time, I find it fun because my voice is different.

On to newer and better things...

I am formulating a plan to get my suitemates to come to LA during the summer. We could go Disneyland, or eat churros at the Pier or at Disneyland. Doesn't it sound grandiose?

Yay!

I'm listening to Coldplay... how about you?

An Article I was Reading...

The Gay Gene Article

You know, I've heard a lot of discussion on whether being gay is genetic or a choice. And, whatever your belief is, so be it.

This article, though it gives hope for the genetic argument, makes me think of "Correlation is not Causation".

I think studies of genes will prove fruitful at some point in the future, but to make such statements doesn't help a cause. It's not a very strong study (they admit that the sample size is small). Who knows? Maybe this will be considered groundbreaking at some point in the far future. But, right now, as it is, I find it to be lacking.

Just thought I'd put it out there.

Just a Thought

911 Truth Movement Docu.

Not saying I believe every word of it or that I believe it at all. Just an interesting 1hr documentary.

Is That the Future I see?

As I watch my friends fall in and out of love, have successes and failures, ups and downs... I can't help but feel along with them, rejoicing in their happiness or lamenting the situation that has gotten them down.

As we make up for lost time, whether from being abroad or simply being too busy with college life, I find myself trying to predict how the future will unfold. With whom will I still be in contact? I don't know. If it's anything like what's happened in after high school, it'll be a surprise. I have kept in touch with a lot of people from high school that were unexpected. Who knows what will happen after college?

I am awaiting decisions from the rest of the 9 universities. I don't know if there will be a better offer, but I am hoping that everything will work out in the end. I hesitate in believing that my path is set, at least for the next year, because I am in disbelief over what I would refer to as a blessing. I love that I possibly have this amazing opportunity that has come my way.

I am nervous and excited for the future. I hope it holds great things. For everyone.

Go to BED!

So, instead of going to sleep, I have decided to write this blog at nearly 2am. I need help.

Anyways, after a thoughtful conversation with a resident, I can't help but ponder.

My brain isn't function well enough for me to put as much thought as I would like to in this blog.

I think everything is a Give and Take situation...

What will I have to give?

Let me know, will ya?